o○ 傆來,‘我呮適合寂嫫…'._

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....im sick...sick ...so sick..

i cant concentrate on my study b/c im thinkin of you....

i know i should come over and say "hi" to you, but what the hell was wrong with me????

friends keep sayin that i have to be aggresstive, but how???

have been crying for half an hour by watching stupid sad movie, the truth was .........

and im totally out of control right now...oh,come on, just give me a break!!! my hope is ........

To K****:

1. I got a "A" for my accounting class without ur help even though u said u would help me....not at all!!!!!!!!Be honestly, i was a little bit mad at u..the truth was u were not responsible for helping me ...whatever, u are a busy guy..really busy....i understand that and i can handle my life...

 

2.I went to Ocean City On 4th July, and we have been driving for 6 hours to get there because we followed the GPS by the wrong address...it was so funny and stupid. The point is I want to go there with u..but this is something that will not happen forever..

 

3. I watched the transformer last week and didnt feel like it was better than first one.felt fuckin tired after been watchin 3 hours movie...and i also watched the proposal, like this one much more..and hope that i will go to a movie with u someday..OMG..impossible to take place.Have u watched any movie recently??and with whom??(please answer them If u see these questions).

 

4.Im gonna get a new car, and i really want to call u to get some suggestions. but i havent..i dont know why, im afraid of hearing ur voice that is something i have missed so much..i shouldnt write this stupid blog for u, however, i cant help think of u all the time...Do u Know that??????You probably not, you are more retarded than me in some ways.

 

5. I often go to swim this summer, and I got tanned but healthier.Do u still work at the pool??How is the job??So sick of asking you the same questions every time.Can we have some special conversations???????For example,what did u eat for dinner??-_-i know, this is the reason you always ingore me.If  I were you , i would do the same thing......

 

6.Where have you been???I havent seen you online for a while..Have u been busy even couldnt get online just a second???Hell no, you just havent wanted to do that, or tried to avoid me???HAHAHAAHAH, I wish the reason was second one, it meant i would be something for you..even though it was bad.i dont care!~~

 

7.I am taking EN102 for summer session 2..it is so ridiculous  I have a quiz everyday for my english class...Do u agree with me, dont u??? I saw a guy who was very similar  as you..I felt excited when I saw him, because i thought he was you..and then i was scared, tried to escape.Hopefully it was not you..I dont have any guts to face you right now even later..

 

8. I am wondering why we cant communicate effectively. Whats the problems between us??Culture, Language, or personality?Could you call me or leave the message when you figure out?? I will buy you a ice cream or something I can afford..LOL

 

9.I might go to Chicago to visit my cousin and my aunt in August.. I want to bring a gift for you.."cause your birthday is coming soon..maybe between the 8/23 to 9/20..right??I have no idea which day your birthday is. so i will say "happy birthday to K*****" every single day during that month...

 

10.Actually i dont have anything to write about. I just want to make 10 things for a list...*_* Im doing fine even though my life without you..i think i will get used to it..Ahhhhhhhhhh, I said  I would get over you couple weeks ago..the fact is i still miss you so much!!!!!!!!!why?????

 

Plus:take care yourself..and make more money...remember I always by your side..Peace..

b/c im so foolish, i know only you.

You are lookin at someone else, you probably dont know my heart.

There is no me in ur day, probably nor even in ur memories.but im think about you as my tears continue to fall.

Im happy with lookin at ur back figure even though u still dont know my heart.

At the end, you will just brush past me.

The days that i miss you so much..The days when it's too hard to bear.

 The words" i like you"are dancing on my lips once again. Do u know im crying for you alone. missing for you and waiting for you.

sometimes i make memories by myself. To me, love is like a beautiful wound.

Even though i see ur pretty smile (rarely), i cant smile with u. The words" i miss you" are also dancing on my lips once again.

Never want to say goodbye even though i cant hold onto you.

I need u, i cant say anything else. i know im so weak, but i want u, and I will wish and wish again.

The days when u fill up my thoughts,the days when my heart grow cold and im sad, can u just come to me??or let me stand by u~!

 

.......happy birthday to myself...

and thank u for all my dear friends who wished my birthday .......LOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVE U GUYS...~~XD

那天偶然在网上看到这篇东西。。觉得写得不错，所以就转过来了。

今天下雪了，很难的。觉得似乎一切都在告诉我我应该放下一切，去面对新的未来。

很多事情原来真的不是自己可以控制的，既然改变不了，那只能去面对了。或许放手才意味真正的解脱。

又一年过去了，新年对我来说，似乎没有任何的意思，接下来的生日，情人节，感恩节，圣诞节，好像都没有意义。

一直觉得生活里少了点什么，到昨晚开始，心情还一直因为某些人在难过。现在觉得太多余！

不知道自己是不是真地走出来了，只知道看了这篇东西，突然觉得有了信心和勇气。

80后的女孩,当你进入一生中最光芒的时候. 
　　 

你的身边开始充斥着各种奢侈品. 
　　 
人们的价值观也开始发生了变化. 
　　 
于是你开始迷茫. 
　　 
面对那些用青春换金钱的女孩. 你知道那是不对的. 
　　 
可是你还是有些羡慕. 甚至想模仿. 
　　 
但你要明白一点, 她们的苦涩你是看不到的， 
　　 
除了金钱她们得不到任何， 
　　 
除了青春她们没有任何资本可供挥霍. 
　　 
你要记住， 拿钱能买到的永远都不贵. 

 女孩， 你可以虚荣， 
　　 
因为那是女人的天性. 
　　 
但不要让自己变成为别人增加虚荣的工具. 
　　 
自行车的后坐比很多名车的软椅更值得回忆， 
　　 
更觉得幸福. 
　　 
那才是你这个年龄的幸福. 

女孩， 不要觉得自己抽烟有多酷， 
　　 
不要到了戒不掉的时候才觉得后悔. 
　　 
你抽掉的是健康. 是父母的血汗钱. 
　　 
即便你的家庭富有. 
　　 
但那不是你赚来的. 所以更要珍惜. 
　　 
不要说抽烟喝酒可以解愁。 
　　 
不抽烟的你绝对会比抽烟的你舒服， 
　　 
喝酒亦然. 
　　 
女孩， 不要觉得自己多么脆弱， 
　　 
其实你比你想像的要坚强， 别被自己骗了。 
　　 
不要为了一个男人或男孩要死要活. 没有必要， 
　　 
这个世界最爱你的人是你的父母， 
　　 
当你为了一个男人要死要活的时候. 
　　 
你想过你的父母是为谁. 
　　 
不再健康却仍在操劳吗？ 
　　 
女孩， 不要说什么男人没一个好东西之类的话. 
　　 
不要恨那个抛弃或背叛你的男人. 
　　 
如果他曾爱过你， 那就感谢他曾带给你的爱和快乐. 
　　 
宽容会让你更高贵. 
　　 
如果他和你一开始就是一场阴谋， 那么更要感谢他， 
　　 
因为他为你的人生增加了一份难得的经验和阅历. 
　　 
　　 
女孩， 如果男人离开了你， 
　　 
不要纠缠， 
　　 
一个男人不爱了就是不爱了. 
　　 

不管你付出什么也挽回不来什么的. 
　　 
有些东西一旦失去就再也回不来了. 
　　 
奇迹很少. 
　　 
女孩， 不要用新的恋情来驱赶旧恋情带来的伤感， 
　　 
不要用你的新男友向你以前的他来证明什么， 
　　 
因为那毫无意义， 说明的 不过是你的幼稚. 
　　 
如果他带着他的新欢在你面前招摇， 
　　 
你也不用假装大度的祝福， 
　　 
没必要 不管那个女孩比你好还是比你差， 
　　 
不管他们幸福不幸福。 . 
　　 
你要明白， 他们和你没有任何关系. 
　　 
他们在他们的世界. 
　　 
你在你的。 
　　 
女孩， 如果你还年轻， 还没有进入社会. 
　　 
那就单身几年， 学会享受寂寞的幸福. 
　　 
以后就算你想单身， 也会有人逼你去结婚. 
　　 
不要为妻母后才开始后悔. 
　　 
不要把你最灿烂的年龄都给了别人. 
　　 
留段时间给自己， 只有自己. 
　　 
女孩， 
　　 
珍爱自己， 
　　 
珍惜自己， 
　　 
如果你自己都不爱你自己， 
　　 
那么怎么让别人来爱你. 
　　 
不要为别人委屈自己， 
　　 
改变自己. 
　　 
你是唯一的你， 
　　 
珍贵的你， 
　　 
骄傲的你， 
　　 

美丽的你. 
　　 
女孩， 尊重别人， 尊重自己， 
　　 
更要让别人尊重你， 你也值得别人尊重. 
　　 
不管时代如何变化， 自爱永远会让人觉得可贵. 
　　 
没有任何借口堕落. 

 

送给我所有的女性朋友，当然也送给优秀的自己！！

It's not ur fault those hands are cold,

Holding on to the hurts from the past.

Afraid to love someone,

Turning ur back against the true meaning of the story.

Like ice,the heart that is hugged, slowly melts.

To be loved by someone or whoever,

It makes life shine like this.

If it was me,

I would make ur heart once again warm with eternal tenderness.

Fates play us,

Even if it makes ur heart hurt at the end of  of the tears.

Sadness amd loneliness that everyone has,

Looking for the place 2 recover is more important.

Yes,for u that place is here.

Dont worry,dont hesitate anymore.

I'll  protect u!

Dont be afraid,

Let u know my love and mind.

 

 

 

 

it's a real pain this time...hurt forever..

我是真的很难受,心疼得要死,快不能呼吸了.什么话都不能说,只能吞进去..

再也不会相信任何人了,原来世界上最爱你的人伤害你的时候是最可怕的...

如果可以不再掉眼泪,是不是说明我的心已经麻木了?

如果可以把那些可怕的回忆擦掉,我是不是就可以若无其事的原谅他们?

我不想在睡梦中被惊醒,然后脑海里一遍遍的回放那些镜头.

我没有勇气面对现实,又没有胆量挑战死亡..从来没有这么无力过,也没有觉得自己这么没用,我会不会就这么沉沦下去,变成别人的负担.

我真的好想回家,这里不是我的家,永远都不是..这里只有恐怖和厌恶,简直就是个地狱..不停的折磨我

我该怎么办?没有可以倾诉的人,没有可以依赖的人,也没有可以相信的人.原来世界是这么黑暗,我现在才看清,会不会有点太晚???